I understand what it's like to be a student suffering with bipolar disorder. It is rough, and you deserve a congratulations for facing the challenges against you. It is a congratulations you won't likely receive, but you can get it from here, from us.

You need to listen to your gut. Nobody else in the world knows what is like to be you. If you feel like checking yourself in to get well then you should go. Safety is the first priority.

It is important to stay hopeful. Don't lose hope. Through efforts I have taken in my life, including sticking with a heavy cardio exercise routine, getting regular sleep, and meditation, I have DRAMATICALLY improved my mental health. If you have or have ever considered turning to faith, that has also helped me tremendously. I prayed to God for help facing my bipolar disorder and He answered me.

I wish you the best. Don't feel bad for posting too much. That is what this forum is for. God Bless.