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Originally Posted by UCMATH
I'm sorry, cashart10! I was unstable for a bit over three years after my psychotic episode. There were times when I believed I was getting better only to find that I wasn't. It's frustrating, but the gift of Bipolar is that its cyclical nature means it does improve. That doesn't mean you'll be back to your old self. Even when Bipolar patients are euthymic, a significant proportion of us still exhibit some depressive symptoms. However, it does mean things will probably calm down for quite a while. Unfortunately, it can take a long time for that to happen. You've just got to hold on and push through it.  |
Thank you for sharing your story and your advice. It honestly gives me seeds of hope. I had a very psychotic episode at the start of these three years that I've been sick and I have heard by enough in the field to give healing and the right meds time. I had about an 8 year period with no major episodes except for postpartum depression that lasted for a minimal amount of time. Now, after these 3 years of hell for both me and my family, I am beginning to believe I will always struggle with extreme instability. In reality I know that I lost touch at age 14 and was back to my normal self by age 20 with some short periods of stability in between those years. Stability has been obtained for a prolonged period of time; I am just not so sure it will happen again. It is one of the primary reasons I am often tempted to throw in the towel.