(((June))) I don't know if this will help but we all have those times when we live in memories... this is why we seek out the "oldie goldie" radio stations or go through photo albums... and we all wish for those days back, to be able to change things (even though we reallydon't know what we would change in the same time-zone )

I never liked the dx you are operating under... but perhaps it's getting easier for me to accept... that you have connection to your 17 year old is encouraging... and there is hope..

we don't have to leave those memories... they can always be a part of us and our lives... but your T is correct in that we cannot allow the past to rule our present or we have no future.