Dearest T: I do wish you would make up your mind. Last time we talked you were making noises again like you're moving back here. Now today, you said you'll be in town for a weekend in May "to tie up some things" and we can schedule time to meet while you're here. Like, you've decided again NOT to move back. Geez, this flip-flopping is maddening, woman! lol actually it's ok. I get it, I do. Moving sucks!! I'm just glad I'll be able to see you in person one last time and in 2 weeks, to boot. Thank you for that. After I told you today about the party my friend had for me the other day when I was back in St. Louis, how great it was seeing previous coworkers some of whom I hadn't seen for 20 years and how I had all these realizations about myself ... you said "It sounds like you're really on your way" and that I sound so happy. I am and I am. Do you know I didn't think about you or therapy at all while I was on my trip. I didn't do any writing, didn't remember any dreams... I just lived my life and had fun. And thank you for bringing "IT" up - lol - the subject I always have a hard time with. You suggested we stop scheduling and just go to an "as-needed" basis now, if something comes up I call or text for an appointment. Sounds perfect to me. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, t. For EVERYTHING - for not letting me quit those times in the past when I tried, for pushing me when you have, for being so gracious with me, for just... everything. You have helped me grow and help myself SO much. Looking so forward to seeing you in 2 weeks to tell you in person.