Hello everyone. Im here because I believe my wife may be bipolar. I guess every guy says that you know? But I don't feel that this is a false flag case and I just wanted to come here to seek some advice and ask for help - regardless of whether she does or not. Maybe she's just a woman I don't know.

First off I want to say I love my wife and I always have. I know that she has problems and I have problems as well. We're people. We got married this February after a very long friendship that led into a relationship and now a wonderful marriage that at times and out of the blue seems to be falling apart.

With that said. This isn't an every day thing and its not an every minute thing. It seems to me to be a completely out of the blue meltdown that quite frankly scares the **** out of me. For the most part she's a loving caring and downright calm woman. Very soft spoken and - well - just calm. But then after the calm there's a swift and ruthless storm brought on by darn near anything but something serious. I mean the kind of tirade someone has when theyve discovered their lover has been cheating on them or smoking crack on their 'fishing trips' or has another family on Seattle and those business trips are all just a lie. I mean its really quite something else to see this angel of a woman just transform into a pool of finatical cursing and I hate you's and you're a disgusting filthy man. I mean if I was a crying man I'd cry.

I always end out just wondering. Am I that bad? Sure I have memory problems. I'm a downright forgetful son of a ***** I am. And some times that is a spark. More often than not that is the spark. But people have their problems. And I think I'm entitled to be forgetful seeing as how I don't cheat or do drugs or even drink really. I don't go out with friends or anything. I do my very best to be devoted to her and our son but dang it for some reason or another I forget stuff some times.

So I have a few questions. What the HECK do I do whenever this meltdown happens? We've talked about it and she says just leave her alone. Which TRUST me I want to do. But its hard because she's my wife and I just want so badly to calm her down and hold her and breathe with her. I want so badly to just be with her in that moment that I just keep talking to her and trying to talk with her about the situation and deescalate it. But it only fuels it. And then I walk away and she gets man that I walk away. In these moments its like nothing I can do will help. Nothing I can do can fix it. What CAN I do? What is there that I can do for her when she is like this?

Now a big question I have is that on occasion - and I really mean that - my wife will smoke marijuana. Now I have noticed that the next day she is usually an emotional WRECK and there is absolutely nothing I can do to fix that. Could this be a contributing factor to her emotional behavior?

Now about professional help. I don't have health insurance yet. But plan to get it in the coming months. Are there things I can do in the mean time? That she can do? When I get insurance should she see a Psychologist first or a Psychiatrists? Is the only way to fix this REALLY just drugs?

All answers and testimonies are extremely appreciated please if you have anything to say or request oont hesitate at all. Thank you