dont feel like that.
i went through that same issue. i was in hospital a lot during high school. i had to be put in special ed in the program for mentally disturbed children. and eventually an alternative school because i missed school so much because of my illness and was failing because i missed school so much and had skipped school a bit because of my social anxiety and schizoaffective.

at that time i was dxd with schizoaffective. but it was changing then.