Forgot my papers on the vending machine 5-6 times to go out for a smoke. Always walked back to the unit without it which is like a 5 minute walk. I recently went out of the unit to get it and forgot again while coming back with Ice cream, a coffee or something.

Ahahha I laugh at this but I'm thinking about how I'll be a reliant, functioning person in the future for when I get a job. I tried a computer desk job and... Ya.. I'll skip...

Doctor told me to ask the psychiatrist to increase the Vyvanse so I asked the psychiatrist and he kinda gets pissed when I talk about stimulant medications but he knows that I want to be a pharmacist so he knows that I'm able to list every stimulant and dosages in alphabetical order.. So basically I can red flag anything..

Like come on.. I'm not drug seeking..

Anyways..

My dealers stopped responding and usually I talk a lot in that situation which makes it worse so this time in life, I'm not mentioning my paranoia anymore. It just works better that way. Cuz there's a schizophrenic in my unit that asks the staff questions like "Nothing to worry about?" And the staff hears and has to reply every 30 seconds for hours.