i see so much of myself in that. like so much. i had to skim it. i couldnt read the whole thing because i dont think i couldve handled it. but i got the entire jist of it i read about every other sentence.

um i know im having psychotic symptoms now but im not really having a break. but i hope i dont have a break. im in ther perfect time for a break. i was doing well for almost a year off meds and then i start having symptoms. thats about the time for a break.

well im on my meds now. even my haldol. cuz i got desperate to not have a break. but im not on the full dose of haldol. admittedly. but im on it.

but i still dont have all much faith in the mental health system even tho the resources i use. therapy and pdoc.