Oh ((Catlover)) sorry about your mother. I can relate to not liking how "self" is now with PTSD, I have that going on myself too. I definitely have my low days too so I hear you there. I take it one day at a time and just keep learning and trying and healing and supporting others to keep trying too. I know how lonely it gets too.

I think that you did well, and next time it will be a little easier, baby steps, that's ok. This may prove to be very helpful, so give it a chance, what do you have to lose really right? Today was a positive after all, it's important to focus on that. I believe you, I believe you are a fighter too.

((Hugs))