I'd like to introduce the possibility that when in crisis of that magnitude, you don't consider yourself traumatized. You consider what has to be done day by day. Things don't magically get better after a worldchanging historic event that you've survived. It takes years of uncertainty, scraping by, rebuilding in an absolutely literal way. and you're focused on that.

You're focused emotionally on the loss, if anything. It's a shock too deep, too big to grasp. Maybe not ever.

You don't have time to navel gaze about it. You're busy living it, and things like that...you never stop living it. You learn to go on. You have scars, you're never the person you were. You learn to be someone else, someone who is After.

I mean this in the sense of horrific worldshattering disasters, not specifically the Holocaust, because I am not Jewish and do not have the right to speak for them. I mean it only as food for thought, from the perspective of someone who went through a disaster that made the history books. I deeply apologize if I offend and please let me know if I should edit or delete my post. I do not, cannot, will not compare my experience to the systematic murder of a marginalized group of people. Again I only mean it in the general sense.