My therapist suggested I'd talk to my childhood crush who I went to school with. I had not infatuation, but a strange knowing/appreciation for her. She wasn't someone I considered dating, because she's kinda mean and acts like she's better than everyone else, but I do too.
If it did happen, I'd feel so happy, like it be the cutest thing ever honestly. I feel it would work. I don't get jealous easy anymore, I'm very patient and the thing that would piss me off if she took that as me being submissive or not manly enough. I doubt it, but if it did happen, she'd be dropped on her *** immediately. I don't put up with it ever.

I do respect her a lot, but I'm not sure if she would respect me. I don't know, I put some neutral questions at her today not hinting anything. I don't plan on it, unless opportunity arises and it looks good other than that I'd shut her out. I give her the same respect as everyone else when they aren't close to me.

I feel it could work too, because she maybe more like me and it be nice if it did work out. I just find her superficiality disgusting sometimes, but she's hinted for a long time it's a front and she's had real talks with me before. I feel she be a positive person if it's what I hope it is. I had a checkered past issues with her, but if it did, man how cute that be. I'd treat her right, and be respectful of myself and her but mostly keep an eye out if she takes me out of context and tries to trip me up. I'll always be on my toes even when I fail. So it's something I've considered an option, I find her type of physical symmetry the most beautiful I've see on a woman ever.

I don't know why, I don't have a reason. I don't need one it kinda happened out of nowhere for a long time. I don't think about her all the time, but when she comes into my mind. I always want to know if it could happen. I am trying to see casually, but I'm not ready to jump anywhere till it's certain. She's my age, but she has a lot of qualities personality wise I really like. Her confidence is sexy to me, I'm really confident when I'm insecure I don't let it consume and I will vent out what I need is on my mind. I never let people push me around, she's like that too. I really like that, and she's a person who likes to play around joke with other people, she does have a lot of guy friends and some female friends. I see if there was an issue, it come from her not me, because I feel that if I'm not as aggressive as the other guys I'm obviously weak when I don't choose to. I don't mind it, and I'm good at it when comfortable, but I don't want to appear too clingy and possessive and I definitely don't want to appear as push over doormat and you can do what you want to my gf, but my philosophy she should have enough self respect to know better in those situations and trust I'm not going to get to pissed off and that if she tells me something that she thinks would upset me. I'd be a lot less upset if she told me, rather encourage conversation, I have never had good conversation gfs. They were very closed and expected me to know, and that's never worked. I usually give up and pretend not to care, and they take it the wrong way and I'm like **** it. But now you know.