Im currently working on some things from my past that happened to me through therapy (The T and I have made, which is good!)
any way, when I was younger I was molested by my cousin, along with a bunch of other people, I was so young I couldn't comprehend much of what was happening to me, I just developed a lot of paranoia because of it. it was so bad that there are pieces of my memory that are so foggy and I can't recall... it scares me to think that I may have been raped... it's like from about ages 6-8 it was all just one large hour (if that makes any sense.) I escaped when our family moved out of the country (sited dad is in the Air Force, now retired) it's strained my relationship with most men, I have a SO now, but that's all I'll let it be, he's great and knows what happened so he respects that... any way fast forward->
I have to go back to my home state because of my grandmothers health for a week or so and now I have to stay with the people who Molested me and when I try to explain to my mom how scared and anxiouse I'm getting she gets mad and really doesn't care, how do I cope with this? I've been loosing sleep because I'm terrified of having to go through that again... also, every time I've had to visit there, that same cousin try's to isolate me in his room but I've always ran or I always stay near a knife or something like that.
I'm really scared... I'll propably call my therapist tomorrow or something, but still.... (sorry for any spelling mistakes)