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Originally Posted by OneInBillions
Anyone else feel this way? I simply... never want to work again. Ever.
Being chained to a desk 8+ hours per day, year after year for the rest of my life is one of my worst nightmares. I was terrified of it way before I started working... and when I got my first real job, it was exactly how I had imagined it would be. The days, weeks, months and even years blurred into a lifeless, grey morass of monotony.
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I don't know that this helps, but I feel exactly the same way. I have had jobs I liked (gold leaf restorer, housepainter - mostly because of my boss). But even these I struggled with. The more "regular" sort of jobs drive me nuts. It's so depressing going someplace you don't like, doing something you don't like, and working for people you'd rather not work for. I don't know why I feel this way exactly. Part of it is that I feel trapped. Part is that I feel unfulfilled. Honestly a lot of it is boredom. I feel like I'm wasting my life at work. I can see that I'm not, but I can't shake the feeling. I have wondered if it's because I'm depressed or something and I lack whatever it is that keeps other people happy in those situations. Maybe I'm not any happier when I'm not working, but at least I don't have to do stuff I don't want to do all the time. I have thought that maybe part of it is that I don't have things like a family or vocation that I can pursue through my work.
Like you, when I am working, I do my best. I'm not just lazy.
I'm struggling with this because I am just starting a job search. I was recently in school, then had back surgery, and now need to get out there.