Hey everyone, my husband has been dx'd w/ "atypical DID". He "blacks out" and does things unlike him.

Today I found a secret cell phone. In it were numbers and text messages from another woman. I suspect there are more women as there are more numbers. Some of them are numbers of apartment complexes in the area.

My husband has no memory of this.

My question...how do I forgive him? Do I forgive him? I feel so betrayed. Furthermore, now I am worried I might have contracted an STD or something worse from him, unknowingly. He again, doesn't remember what he did. The *good* news is there hasn't been many chances of that happening since I believe this began.

I love my husband and I don't want a divorce...but I don't know if I can ever forgive him for this. I'm so upset right now, I don't even know if I want to.

Thanks in advance.