My T definitely looks at me like that and I like it because it makes me feel like she really cares and is really listening to me. I don't think I've ever had someone in my life who looks at me that way and it really means a lot to me. I'm still not 100% comfortable with it because when we make eye contact for prolonged periods of time (for me that's about 4-5 seconds...) I feel like I'm letting her see inside me. I put up a lot of walls with people so when that happens it feels like the wall is completely down and it makes me feel vulnerable. It took me about 4 months to be able to hold eye contact for more than 2 seconds and I still remember the first time it happened. I don't know if she thinks much of that moment but it was a turning point for me.

I also love it whenever I'm thinking/talking and not looking at her and I look up and she is looking at me. Once or twice a session I'll look up and she is gazing down like I do when I'm listening or talking about something difficult. That kind of bothers me but I don't blame her if I haven't made eye contact for the last five minutes.