jealousy = hurt and anger (hard to admit to) so translates to panic?

As you say you're jealous if your mother gives someone else praise which she failed to give to you, it sounds like this is very painful for you...... I can relate, my mother never praised me...

Deep breathing, distraction, meditation, journalling and therapy woud help - and posting here.

Jealousy is a "normal" emotion, just like anger is, and nothing to be ashamed of. But learning to understand yourself and control your reactions will make your life better!

Thinking of you,

Fuzzy