i hate the feeling of suddenly getting disgusted with romance and interpersonal relationships

just yesterday i felt appalled at the idea of friendships and crushes (despite me having both of those)

the feeling is here occasionally but it was never as strong as yesterdays.

another weird Feel is not even feeling like a person?? like i don't feel real, like my own body is a figment of my imagination if that makes sense

though that usually happens late or accompanied with anxiety.

what a weird Feel