Oh, I have thought countless times "why us, why now"? When I witnessed so much damage that really tore apart my family, something that I had fought so hard for to become "positive and productive".

I never expected to end up with PTSD, I had thought I would rise up as I always had before, that just did not happen. I had come back from a lot of bad things, even almost dying and fighting a long battle to recover. For me, what got me is how everything I had built up "in spite" of all these horrible challenges had been so badly destroyed/damaged and overwhelmed me.

I understand how hard it is to have patience, this PTSD really does test that more than anything I have ever experienced. Yes, it is a challenge.