Wow thank you so much Mike, I really appreciate the amazing insight!! The connections you've made are absolutely spot on!

I don't remember too much about Tim, other than him just being present in the dream. From what I can recall, though, he was loud and friendly, and kind of thug-like. When he was accused of murder, he didn't seem surprised nor did he really seem to care.

I think the pole vaulting probably compares to my MCATs. I have taken them several times, and have studied my butt off, but my actual scores are never as good my practice tests, which is so incredibly frustrating. This last time around, I was 1 point short of my goal score.

As for childlike behaviors, because of my accident, I've had to remain living at home and depending on my parents for just about everything. I'm incredibly independent, and so for me, it's very embarrassing that I've had to move back home, even though I know it's totally normal to do so and I had a good reason for doing it.

I'm not too terribly sure what quality I'm trying to "kill" but if I had to guess, it would probably be how inconfidant and self-conscious I am. I tend to get very awkward around people, especially in large groups, and I've always hated that. But, I think this requires a little more self-reflection.

Again, thank you so much!! You've given me a lot to think about, and I really appreciate it!!!