10 years ago I was hit by Something that seemed like intense anxiety and insomnia to me. All the professionals kept calling it depression. Well, of course I did get depressed from the lack of sleep. Anyway, I kept thinking there was something more going on in there.

Amitriptyline gave me back the sleep but I was still being tormented by Something. Lamotrigine (150 mg) started 7 years ago made a lot of it go away and life was good maybe 50% of the time.

A couple of weeks ago I found out that the current doc had diagnosed me with Bipolar Disorder at the latest appointment and the one 6 months before. A couple of years ago he had diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder, but only once.

I've never been manic so I thought, no way, but after reading more, I'm thinking maybe. Sometimes I'm really, really happy and life is simple and fun and I love everybody and they seem to love me, but I don't know if that's normal or not. Other times life seems like a curse that I'm sorry I inflicted on my children. And sometimes I get really, really tense and feel like everything's going wrong and I feel pressured. So that's a strong maybe.

I doubt there's anybody who can read all these introductions but I read the two above me and I can identify with both of them.

I am relieved to finally have something solid to work on.