It feels sort of like I'm cheating on current T with another T...or more accurately, cheating on current T with another emotional prostitute who you will see once and then send on their way. I think maybe my worry is that current T will see this as a sign that I don't want to work with her anymore, which if anything these consults have shown me that I really, really do. Also, she might feel some sort of betrayal that I didn't tell her I was doing consults...like I wasn't being honest with her...ugh...yeah, it's awkward, and I knew that her working at this helpline (for six hours a week) meant I shouldn't call it...ugh...