Hi openbook Welcome to PC.
It might be worth your while to give this breakup some time. I think time is good when both parties are stressed. I don't really have any good advice for you that will bring about a wanted outcome but I hope time will provide you with better coping strategies.
The site has some great features to include a community calendar with weekly announcements.It also has a resource center.It takes a little while for your first 5 posts to appear as they are being evaluated. Browse the numerous forums and *social groups (*need to join) and post when and where you feel comfortable.
If you need any help in navigating this site feel free to contact a community liaison or moderator. Best wishes.