tears were tyhe only consistent part of my day. how do i know if it is me, or she, the one who wanst so to die that is inhabiting my body now? i am just so overwhlemed with the longing, the burning desire for death, just slip away. oh the relief, the happiness, the estacy. i feel i should tell someone, email t, contact a friend. but wouldnt it be better if no one knows??? my little secret.....