If you don't have the money for retail therapy....

Isn't your husband going to find out? How is he going to react when he sees that your Bipolar spending is going to cause a financial hardship? Sure he will be very upset, But I imagine hearing it from you would be easier than when he realized that maybe you wont have to money to pay a bill or have to cut back on food or something.

I would advise you to hand over any debit or credit cards to him and remove your payment information on whatever sites your using...

I spend myself into a black hole from hell about 20 years ago. I almost lost my house and I went 8 days with no food , I was able to buy enough to feed my daughter not myself... She always came first. So I have been there and done that.

Please just return all the items your buying.