Keep coming here if it helps, this is the BP forum most here understand and offer what help they can. If it doesn't fit you and were you are at that's ok. Been there and back, but look I'm here and relatively stable. I admitted to some people I see today that I'm BP. They took it well but the test will happen when I have an episode. Here on PC we've been though the ringer and understand much better. I'm not aware of judgment being handed out on this form, it might seem that way but I don't think it's ever meant that way.

Hang in there and do what you need to to get though this. If it does indeed need IP talk to your Pdoc. better to put reins on the BP than let it pull you over the cliff. Keep posting if that's what you need.