Hi finding my way. Wow can I relate. I'm DiD but didn't know it. Im also a military brat so thought my not remembering chunks of time was due to all the moving around we did. Didn't know about alters either. When I was in labor with my first child, I remember waking up and the doctor was staring out the window of my room. He looked at me and said "u have an interesting way of dealing with pain." Remember thinking: it hurt, I went away, is it over yet. I like the way u describe blending. What's the perfect word. It's true for us that we had long periods of time with no dissociation. Largely cuz there was no reason to dissociate. We felt in control of our life. Well, perhaps I should reword that. No long periods of dissociation. I think, don't know, that perhaps we had short times when alters would come out but it wasn't disruptive of our lives except perhaps lost keys or some task done. But thought those were autopilot stuff. Like driving home from work + not really remembering every turn. Glad u r here. Hope u post often.