Thanks. My mom died a long time ago. I've had a great many family deaths to deal with since then, dad, brother, sister, I have no family left living, immediate or extended.

I'm very disappointed with myself right now. I need to go to the store, but, while homeless, there were many places we stayed, and "things" happened in several of those places. The parking lot of the store I need to go to is one of those places I have a real hard time going to. I have no vehicle, but I have to walk through the parking lot when I get off the bus. I went, but I couldn't get myself through the parking lot. I turned around and caught the same bus back. With some effort, I can usually get myself to that store, but yesterday, I just couldn't do it. Not having reliable transportation, my shopping options are limited. I truly do need to go to this store. I see things getting worse like this, and it bothers me a lot. I'm just so disappointed in myself. I used to be stronger than this... I've had countless panic attacks since, both low level ones, and all out shaking, sweating, vomiting ones. The cats are out of their favorite canned food now, so maybe tomorrow, when they're bugging the crap out of me about it, I'll be able to get myself to go for them. I'd do anything for them....