Today (saturday - my bday) I am feeling much better. Think the anti-depressants have kicked in. I am downright cheerful and going to have a wonderful dinner and get drunk tonight. Maybe I am a bit too cheerful. Especially after being so deeply depressed and suicidal. Still, I am going to milk it and enjoy every minute. Upping my anti-d's tomorrow so I should be feeling completely perfect soon

PS Thanks everyone for your concern. It seems I have dodged the IP bullet this time. That was a close one.