I had my neices over yesterday. They stayed the night. I just took them home.

My sister is a lot like my mother used to be. It's just the only way she's ever known to live. My nieces live a similar life as my own as a child. It makes me sad.

I feel better when they are here. It's like I'm doing something for them that I wish someone could have done for me. Take me out of that terrible environment and show me another way of life, even for a day.

I may be messed up but I can show those children a good life different from what they are accustomed to. I pray I can make an impact in their life great enough to stop the cycle.

Consistent rules, outside play, coloring time, dinner as a family. Bath time, story time, and being tucked in and kissed goodnight.

I look at them, and I see myself and my sisters as a child. I teach them the things I wish I was taught before it was too late.

I tell them about angels. I teach them to scream and run if someone touches their privates. I remind them that they are beautiful.

Ironically enough, I'm 100x more stressed when they are here but 100x more in control of myself.

It's almost like a therapy for me. I look back in my life and feel anger and resentment for being unable to change it. When they are with me, I feel like I am changing something. Even small... I'm showing them that there is love and happiness in this world.

I'm not sure of the point in this post. I'm just putting it out there because it helps me feel better.

Is there anything in your life that makes an impact on you while helping others?