It's been 11 mo for me since my slow slide down. A lot of that last paragraph is very similiar to me which little changes. It feels like I'm being tested or tortured idk which. It does take a bit for someone to hire but when you do, hopefully it will help (it helped me a bit anyways). Work is also an escape for me I'd rather deal with the occasional bad cust than home crap. The best thing to do is just not give up I guess. Imagine what it'll be like yrs down when you're not in that environment. Keep us updated if it gets worse/better