thanks these explanations make sense i cant remember exactly what i bought in the dream but im sure there was some food, like small snacks or something. but that wasnt all because it was a big bag i was carrying, a plastic carrier bag from some shop but i had bought lots of different things from different shops. thats all i remember

as for whats valuable in my life right now im really not sure. the thing ive always valued most is that i am physicly fit. i dont have any physical problems, no allergys (i was thinking about this the other day when i was looking at some self help website and it said think of things your grateful for and things your grateful you dont have), and i can walk miles easily etc. thats probably what means the most to me. if that makes sense

nd the things that go wrong in my life are my fault, its not that im just accepting the responsibility, i can trace them back and its always because of me...