Went to a regular doctor today because of my symptoms and how freaked out I'm getting, and he basically just said everything that's going on is 100% voluntary (I'm doing it all myself) and I need to see a psychologist/therapist. This was by simply uncurling my clenched up toes and without doing a single test whatsoever. Temp, blood pressure, pulse, and NOPE, sorry, you're nuts, have a nice day. Charged my poor mother 80 bucks for that ********, too.

Fantastic. Like I didn't know THAT one before. Ugh. I'm sorry, but that just made me so depressed and pissed off. It would have been nice to have an issue that ISN'T my fault and is actually %#@&#! TREATABLE. Jeeze.

I hate this so incredibly much. I HATE THIS I HATE IT I HATE IT!!!!!!!!!!
adios, and thanks much for all the help,
~muse