Thank you for sharing that, the "what if's" exercise sounds very helpful. Actually playing out the what ifs that torture us can be very therapeutic. I also really like your headline near your username "tired of the miles, ready to sleep." from the saying "miles to go before I sleep." I can really relate.

You will find work. I don't have a degree and it's very hard for me too, it's hard for everyone right now to find work. You will eventually get hired, that is inevitable.