i think you are great for putting yourself out here. you can express yourself any way you want here, tell all your feelings and such etc... that's what this place is for. when someone isn't feeling so well about themselves or just have a problem it really helps to know someone here can relate, we've all been there before. i'm sorry you don't feel so happy with yourself, sometimes these thoughts are not lingering ones but you have to get through it and this is the best place besides a doc or t visit to get things off your chest. i wish you a good night and try to get a good nights sleep-sorry about the cat situation-i would have been so angry!!!