Ah, my real brothers and sisters!

I frequently get into a spell of almost panic--this isn't a normal life; this isn't the way people are supposed to live; what happened? and so on.

Having been recently diagnosed as bipolar, I'm working on the acceptance part right now. We didn't do this; it happened.

Next step, for me: After a rest from disliking myself,
1. Seeing if there's anything I can do about being so alone, and
2. At the same time, looking for things to like about my situation, as it is, without anyone close. Enjoying anything about it that can be enjoyed.