Oh ((SALLY)), I know what you mean, it's very hard when people around you are dysfunctional in some way, and often a husband can be a trigger too, because they tend to say all the wrong things. Often the individual with the PTSD had been the strong one in the mix so people around them can begin to resent how they are challenged and become very dismissive too. I have experienced that big time myself, and when that happens there is a desire to retreat and hide under the covers or run away.

It is very "lonely" challenge, believe me I have wept a lot about that fact. Other than my T, and being able to come to PC, I don't have anyone I can call and just talk to that can relate and be supportive. It really "is" important to stay connected to a therapist that "does" get it so you can vent, and also come here, but try to find other support too.

One day not too long ago I was so bad my husband called 211 and I talked to a very nice woman on the phone, she was very validating and it helped me slowly calm down as I was really crying and lost. I said to her, "this is so damn lonely", and she validated that, it was so nice to hear a kind voice. I don't know if that number works for where you are too, you could always try it and see, I only have used it once, but I like knowing it's there if I need it.

Wanting to take a time out and get away is a very common desire with PTSD. That decreases with time and good therapy, I can't say it goes away completely, have not gotten there myself. It is sometimes hard to "just" be in the now, it takes time for a person to slowly learn "how to gradually be more in the now" too. When I am triggered or cycling, I am not in the "now" and it's very hard for me to think and do tasks when I am like that too. I have learned to be patient with it when that happens. My husband "can" trigger me out of the now too. I have had a very challenged history with him so at times "yes" he can trigger me "out of the now", I can't say enough "patience".

((Hugs))
OE