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Old Apr 25, 2015, 09:26 PM
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what you want to do with your life: Bipolar has changed that but more by taking away what I used to want and making me re-adjust what I want than by wanting something different after the bipolar came along

whether you want a lot of people around or want to mostly be left alone, I always was an introvert but in college and grad school which were my last normal years I enjoyed being with people and had a social life. Now my social life is my mom and my nieces, sometimes my sister and that's about it. I just had to give up vacation because I was too manic to be around all the people, including family not used to bipolar at all and with 4 kids under 4. I love babies and little kids but that was going to be too much noise. I'm working on having more people in my life when I'm better than I am right now

where you want to live, Again, bipolar changed my circumstances. If I had my way I'd still be living in my little house half an hour from here but between not being able to afford it and needing more help I move to a tiny house on my mom's property and sold my house 2 years ago.

whether you want to have pets or hate having to care for them, Unchanged

whether you want to exercise a lot and eat healthy or you just want to have fun I want to exercise more than I do and eat healthier than I do but again, bipolar makes the decisions sometimes. I used to be much better at both

whether you want a romantic partner or that's more trouble than it's worth too caught up in abuse issues to even know

whether you think you have a lot of love to give or that you do people a favor by not getting involved because you KNOW you'll dump them laterI know I have a lot of love to give. I just tend to save it for my mom and my sister's family. I think that has to do with allotting energy and fear I'll run out if I spread myself too thin
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Bipolar 1, PTSD, GAD, OCD.
Clozapine 250 mg, Emsam 12 mg/day patch, topamax 25 mg, ,Gabapentin 1600 mg & 100-2 PRN,. 2.5 mg clonazepam., 75 mg Seroquel and 12.5 mg PRNx2 daily
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