You are right about not knowing when a relationship will happen.* A job is easier to gauge and I have more opportunities elsewhere.

I actually told her all of what I shared in the first post.* And we got back together for about an hour before she accused me of cheating (a common accusation of hers, along with me "using" her).* She explained it was because she was "overly-medicated" due to her pain meds, but this isn't the first time.* I tried to tell her that every time she made that accusation she is calling me a liar and that she can't love me if she can't trust me.

She goes for counseling every few months for a quick-fix and then thinks everything is fine.* Then her demons get to her again, and we have more problems.* Apparently she doesn't feel she needs more counseling.* She literally only goes for about 6 hours a year. *

Tonight I explained to her that healthy people don't treat others this way or let themselves be treated this way and we've had a dysfunctional relationship more than a healthy one.* She said a male neighbor invited her over for dinner and asked if I was ok with that.* I really am.* She will always hold a special place in my heart but if I wasn't worth her dealing with her insecurities or not allowing her being medicated to treat me like dirt, there's no point to going on with this.