Just an update... need to sort these thoughts.
I read an old article about cultural views on symptoms of schizophrenia. (here) - It made me feel better about my beliefs.
Started going to bed the same time every day... sort of think it might be helping with a lot of things, but socially I'm more withdrawn than ever. I haven't checked facebook for months because I got a message there that I haven't replied to yet.
I have a mission now but it's difficult to stay productive.
Hope everyone is doing well.