I want talk for studies,work,job and lack of motivation.I remember my self boring and dislike studying from early years,a mediocre student just waiting finish school with a mediocre degree.

After high school years,i went to learn something,much money and time wasted,from first 6 months i was already bored,didnt like the stuff they teaching us,most ppl changed subject,i left alone with 2 guys into a classroom waiting 2 years of boredom to pass and then no degree cause i gave up in the second failed attempt to pass degree exams.

I felt sto guilty,so failed,so alone i coulnd't make it to succeed,my parents thought i was a lazy,i couldn't find motivation,something will be inspiring to try,without friends,without fun,without much money,without relationship,loneliness,lack of confidence,low self esteem,insecure,difficulty to think clear and take decisions will make me an independent person.

Next step was to went gym trying to fix my mood and make my dead boring daily hours be less boring.Not last long,after 2 years bored of gym,continued to be into loneliness.Fearing to search for a job that could make me believe more to my self and make some little steps forward.

Now is the second attempt trying take a degree in a subject,again the same dissapointment,again wrong choice,was so boring and useless going somewhere and nothing to be insteresting.

Back in past i wanted to learn guitar,go to a team playing football for fun,buy a used car,find a job for some money,have friends,nothing from that i did all over the years.

This moment im trying to understand the meaning of my life and could not find any kind of motivation will make me escape from a space daily boring life.