(trigger just in case because i dont wanna hurt anyone)

I made a post in General saying I was back and now I'm not so sure. People looked at it, but maybe i'm not wanted anymore. I know i'm whiney and selfcentred and hard to put up with. I'm so sorry.

Hard time lately. Felt abandoned and not wanted by my friends. Silly reasons. Thought they were ignoring me.

Stressed out over school stuff and life stuff and money and my roomate and my family is still annoying me to pieces when they arent ignoring me

had a T appt today with the guy who was my T before he got certified in April. background session today to see whats been up with me, another appointment in 2 weeks. Long time but maybe I'll be fine.

Friends graduated last week, not feeling good about that. Abandonment issues and sadness all over again. Hate change so much. One friend came back, the guy who helped me to stop SI the first time, good that he's back because I missed him.

So spacey and unable to concentrate and remember stuff. Hard to take care of myself, need to but can't seem to find the willpower and strength. Just want to go to sleep until I feel better. thinking about bad stuff lately. like how nobody would miss me if I died. not suicidal, just not in a good spot emotionally right now.

Dont want to hurt anyone, so if I'm being a pest tell me and I'll go away. Nobody deserves hurt like me.



(edit to correct glaring spelling errors)