I am sort of blended - mixed with some rapid cycling. The timing of my mania and depression are tight to each other and I never seem to be in "baseline" mode......hence my wife saying I never "seem to be happy". I'm either too up (abnormal) or down.

My episodes seem to rapid cycle in four and five day segments. My cycle is usually upbeat hypomania - a little too high but creative, good attitude, and super-positive about life followed by some trigger (often related to work) that puts me into a mild depression in search of an escape with paranoia and wild ideas about changes. The anger and frustration usually comes at the beginning of the depression. After, I just sort of sulk until my next hypomania which comes back around a week later.

My goal is to start letting life come to me.