{{{{{{{{{{Mary Alice}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Believe me, I know that feeling of just existing for so long that you don't know if living could ever even be possible. That is a really discouraging feeling, and possibly something you could consider starting with when you start therapy again next week. After all this time, we start to wonder if there is even anything left - even enough hope to be able to change. But here we are still talking about it and still looking for answers and reaching for someone to understand and to help us, so there must be something left, right? If there were not still part of you that wants to live and knows that you need some help so that you can, then either you would have been gone from us a long time ago, or you would have just resigned yourself to the status quo and would not be on this site talking to us about it, and wouldn't be seeking therapy or even overdosing. All of those things come from the part of you that still knows there is more to life for you and still wants a chance to be who you can be and find satisfaction and happiness. It's not too late, and you do deserve to live. It's not going to be easy, and you will have to make some changes, but you really can do it.

Love,
Wendy