Do you ever feel like that?

I know they love me. But I find myself irritating and confusing and they must too. I don't feel like talking to them about Bipolar and all my crazy because I feel like I have done that too much in the past and I'm trying to keep it more contained.

But I still need help often and need an ear often and I have definitely put them through a lot in the past. I wonder if I could really be a good friend to a person with BIpolar in real life. It seems like it would be kinda draining.

Blah