Such a beautiful day! 0C/32F but the sun is warm. I went for a walk so peaceful to be alone which isn't helping my negative social symptoms but who cares I'm enjoying life...

I was paranoid and couldn't let it go so I phoned the dealer (My old roommate) and he said that he was fighting with the other guy because he jacked his meds and went into a rampage so they couldn't reply.

He's giving back my 200 dollars but I said in high quality coke. I mean it's better than smoking a pack a day.. So no rat poison and stuff. Some opiates I might buy but I'm not doing acid in a mental hospital lol

I just walk the halls listening to good music just happy but a dead feeling approaches my mind that I want to get high.. Because of the negative symptoms it looks like everyone else is high..