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Yes, it is painful when working on core issues. It was hard on me. I would cry at work, fall deeper into depression, had my AD's increased and added a p-doc.

I've kind of put the core issue (relating to men) on the back burner for now and I am working on my ADD issues that impact my job. Mainly because I started a new job so I want to do this right.

However, in the back of my mind is the core issues. You might remember my T saying that it is 'better to feel the pain'...and how that affected me at the time.

I can say now that yes it is better to feel the pain but gosh while it is happening wow. It is so hard.

I like spa treatments at times like this. I'm sorry that you are feeling like this and needing to possibly switch.

Are you sure this can't be worked out with your current T? I only say this because I almost quit altogether. It was you and many others on this board that challenged me to stick it out.

If it hadn't been for you and the others I might not be having an upswing right now.

But if moving on is what you need to do then it just might take your therapy to a whole new level!

As for AD's honestly this made a huge difference in how I handled the pain. I did not have anxiety until Wellbutrin was added but once that stopped dealing was easier.

Sometimes when I feel as you do now I pop in a few oldie but goodie movies that I like such as The Wizard of Oz, Grease and The Honeymooners. You have to laugh at Ralph Cramden aka Jackie Gleason...he's a hoot.