Wow. I could have written that. I know they care, and after all the few friends I do have still stick around and put up with the crazy s... I have pulled. Some words I have spoken can not be taken back, and some things I have done can`t be forgotten. I feel shame and guilt for that, even though I know, and they know, that most of it has to do with my BP. I guess that shows that I have concience and feel bad when I have hurt people. SO in a strange way it is a good thing... I think my friends know that I feel guilt and shame about some stuff also.