I am so angry, sick, hurt, disgusted!! My ex got full and sole custody of my 15yo MR son 10/24/2014. I had some very bad advice from an attorney I paid a lot of money. I am still absolutely dumbfounded that it was not only possible to lose my son to my abusive, alcoholic, drug addicted ex, but that I cannot even get my supervised visitation. Why can I not get any help?!?!? I have contacted everyone possible in these last 6 months. I decided to go to church to see my son (church "family" NOT helpful at all) and my son, with his mental retardation, sends me messages saying I do not have to worry about going to church anymore I don't think. He says either I think or I don't think after everything he says. His father is pure evil. There is no other way to put it. I signed myself in to a hospital due to the severe depression, but this is not something one can ever get over much less adjust to. I actually had an insensitive clod tell me I am not the only one with problems. WHAT?!?!?!? So since I cannot get help I have lost my son for good because, since he is MR, when he turns 18, I can file for legal guardianship, but Satan (AKA the disgusting excuse for a father) has to agree and he never will just to hurt me. It absolutely sickens me that he not only does not mind hurting my kids in the process, but he seems to enjoy it. Pure evil!! I cannot get over this nor adjust in any way, shape or form. I have been in bed about 75% of the time and have my fourth disability app in the works (I was lied to about that, too, and told I did not have to pay child support due to being unable to work, but they garnished my tax refund!). I just cannot see ever getting past this so I plan on being homeless as I cannot work. My daughter is 19 and works full time at McDonald's, but even though I have asked her, I know it is not fair to ask her to help me with bills so I can stay in this house longer. Her boyfriend is staying with us, too, and I sure won't ask him for financial help. They both know everything and still I get no help from them. I do know my daughter has turned out amazing after all the garbage Satan has done to her, but she does have issues, as I am sure my son does, too, now. I am just not able to see myself ever going back to work. I have been unable to work for years anyway, but what am I supposed to do until I get approved, IF I even do get approved. Just so sick at heart. I even did a GoFundMe on my facebook and found not one person donated, so that is fine. I am glad to find out no one really cares I am done. Just wondering what others who have gone through something similar do to deal with the depression. I am positive it would not be near this bad if money was not a huge issue!!!