i just have noticed that this post has been sitting here a while with no answer. i wonder if what i do is considered MD. i have a whole world of characters but i pretty much only go there at night when i am trying to fall asleep. i have done it since i was about 14. i find i have gone years without, but that is only when my life has been going well.

it certainly sounds like you have a loss of motivation. i would talk about setting goals for yourself but it doesnt sound like you are in that frame of mind.

have you considered therapy to help you past this rut you seem to be in?