Are you sure they are panic attacks? not questioning it if it is, but just in my experience the closest I have come to 'enjoying' anything like a panic attack....was when it was more of a rage attack. It was triggerred by a traumatic experience but it got to where the rage/adrenaline or whatever almost felt good like it was a powerful kind of feeling....kind of a negative euphoria I suppose. So is there any of that going on when you experience this....or is it really just panic and extreme fear and feelings of helplessness you feel you are enjoying?